Some of you know, Mike and I are traveling to Iowa in May for a 3 week visit! =) Laying in bed last night, unable to completely shut down and fall asleep right away (completely unusual for me...) I started to think about going back to the states.
I decided that part of me is really excited, and other parts are not so excited. I'm excited to get off the plane, speed walk through the Des Moines airport, come down a flight of stairs and see my family. I remember when I went back to the states in September you would have thought I had risen from the dead. There were tears, lots of hugs, a fountain of happiness. AND I had only been gone for something like 6 months. I'm excited for Mike to experience that gushing of happiness. It makes the long flights worth it. And I'm thrilled I get to sit in on the regular laughs and jokes made at the dinner table. You just can't duplicate that through a phone call or even skype! I'm excited to run a race with my mom, to tell everyone about Japan as memories come to me, I'm excited to spend mothers day with my family. I'm excited for a good steak and some lovely mexican food. Ooo and chinese. I love me some American Chinese food. They've got chinese food in Japan - but it's not the same as Iowa Chinese food. haha!
I'm not so excited about going home because I know that life in Iowa doesn't freeze when I leave the country. Life goes on, other commitments are made, and events happen. Going back home means recognizing that I've been disconnected from my family's lives - even though unintentionally.
Another reason I'm not completely ecstatic that we're going back to Iowa is that I know other people can't drop everything that's happening in their lives to spend time with us. It just can't/doesn't happen. That may be selfish - but I'm thinking WE"RE dropping everything to come be in Iowa... We've said to our Jr Highers, sorry 2/3 of your leaders will be taking a vacation and won't be around to have an event this month. Oh, and good luck on having worship without a guitar or piano player! And Mike's guitar lessons - I know you just started taking lessons a month ago, but go ahead and take a month off. =) And my English lessons - Yes, we're one month into the new school year with a dauntingly new English curriculum. Oh, by the way, I'm leaving the country to visit the states. You can make that work right?
Ok, ok... I AM being a little dramatic. It's just that I'm remembering a twinge of disappointment when I was in the states last September. I had a great time with people - when they were around. But there were plenty of times when seemingly everyone was busy and I would take naps in "my" car in a park. Or wander Wal-Mart for an hour or more. Or count the hours until mom came home for lunch and then for good. Boring.
I'm thinking that May will be a better time to visit anyway. In september, colleges were in session and my old friends were meeting new friends and getting adjusted to their classes. It wasn't a planned trip - I decided to quit my job as a lifeguard and visit home, so I went. I didn't make a schedule so people could have notice of when I was coming home. I didn't call people as a heads up before I left Japan. Looking back, that was my problem.
Now - don't get me wrong, I'm really excited to hug my mom, and watch biggest loser as a family, go play with Mike's nieces and nephews, play cards with the Alexanders... I am. I'm just praying that there's less downtime, and more funtimes.